Day 3

 POTS: 2

Back Pain:  Before 7 pm- 4, after 7 pm- 1

It started as a slow day, slept in, went to church, came home, took a nap. Woke up from nap and decided I needed to do more then nothing today. I decided to work on the 2 daycare rooms, but it's a huge mess. I walk in and I feel so overwhelmed that I just stand there. The more I worked on organizing things the worse my back pain got. As I was walking up the stairs I stopped to take the dirty blankets out of the basket. I bent over, grabbed a blanket, threw it back down and said, Nope, not happening! So, I am back in bed, where I will text my employees and ask them to do the simple task tomorrow! 

Emotions from today: Frustration. Every time I bring up closing, Brad talks about his "reloading room". Thus, I've been working on condensing 2 rooms into 1 1/2. I've already started the process. I have stuff everywhere! Now Brad says he doesn't want the space. I feel stuck. I already started. Things are a mess. Where do I put things? I then suggested, why do you just use my office? While it's a good idea, it's also the opposite of what I've been doing! I've been moving everything INTO my office, making room in the "lost bed room". The idea of switching back was hurting my brain. 

Plan for tonight: shut off my brain and possibly re-tackle it tomorrow. 

Other feelings right now: After I decided to close, for the second time, I no longer enjoy working at the daycare. I love going down and saying hi to the kids, but working an extended period of time, no thanks. I'm grateful I can get away with 2 "days off" this week, but I'm working twice as many hours as last week and it makes me feel annoyed.